He was in my dream last night. Hugging me, his hair long, he was so tall and thin. I kept telling him I loved him. It was like he was trying to get away, but I kept on holding him. He suit so thin...it was him in my dreams talking to me omg!!!!
I am over everything!
I am wearing my dead cousins sweater..I spoke to his sister today, if I could get him to contact me Ithink I would have a messenger to magic on my side. I tried to get nl attention and failed , I hate myself. I am so depressed...I need the gym.
.2015. Again. Sad. New years just makes me feel so alone.. ugly,insecure,fat,useless...ugh...
Wow lj is a ghost town. Its a new year, im somehow supposed to start with new things...but lj has been with me since ive been online, and its homey when I want to get away. And I cant let it go. Here I am...so sad...broken...again.